Last year Rose Kalemba wrote a blog post explaining how hard it had been - when she was raped as a year-old girl - to get a video of the attack removed from a popular porn website. Dozens of people then contacted her to say that they were facing the same problem today.

The nurse stopped at the doorway leading out of Rose's hospital room and turned to face her. Rose looked at the nurse. She couldn't be older than 40, Rose thought, adult lonelys white girl in shumen daughter must be young, like me.

She thought back to the morning after the assault, to the conversations with the emotionless policeman and the clinical doctor. Everyone had used the phrase "alleged" when referring to the violent, hours-long overnight attack that Rose had described to them. With the exception of her father and grandmother, most of her relatives hadn't believed her either. With the nurse it was different. It was a small crack of hope - someone recognising and acknowledging what had happened to her.

A wave of relief washed over her, which felt like it could be the start of her recovery. But soon hundreds of thousands of people would see the rape for themselves and from those viewers she received no sympathy. A decade later, Rose Kalemba brushes her thick thigh-length black hair at the bathroom mirror, twirling the ends with her fingers to form natural ringlets. This wouldn't have been the case in the months after her attack - all the mirrors in her home had to be covered with blankets, as she couldn't bear to catch her reflection.

She is now 25 and she has organised routines of self-care into adult lonelys white girl in shumen daily life. Taking care of her hair is one. Combing it takes time and effort, it's almost an act of meditation. She knows she has beautiful hair, people comment on it all the time. Every morning she also makes herself a cup of cacao, a pure, raw form of chocolate that she believes has healing qualities, and writes down her goals in a diary.

She deliberately puts them in the present tense. Sitting down to talk, Rose pulls her hair over her shoulders - it covers most of her body, her own armour.

Growing up in a small town in Ohio, it wasn't unusual for Rose to go for a walk alone before bedtime. It cleared her head, she enjoyed the fresh air and peace. So that evening in summer started like most for year-old Rose.

But then a man appeared from the shadows. At knifepoint he forced her into warum der ausfluss riecht sauer car. Sitting in the passenger seat was a second man, aged about 19 - she'd seen him around town. They drove her to a house on the other side of town and raped her over a period of 12 hours, while a third man filmed parts of the assault. Rose was in shock - she could hardly breathe. She was badly beaten and stabbed on her left leg, her clothes bloody.

She fell in and out of consciousness. At some point, one of the men got out a laptop and showed Rose videos of attacks on other women. Some of the victims were white but many were women of colour. Later, the men threatened to kill her. Forcing herself to collect her senses, Rose began to talk to them. If they released her, she wouldn't reveal their identities, she said. Nothing would ever happen to them, no-one would know. Taking her back in the car, men dumped her in a street about half an hour's walk from her home.

Walking through the door, she caught sight of her reflection in the hall mirror. A gash in her head was oozing blood. Her father, Ron, and some extended family were in the living room about to have lunch. Still bleeding from her stab wound, she explained what had happened to her.

At the hospital, Rose was greeted by a male doctor and male police officer. The male police officer asked her if this had started as consensual. Was it a night gone wild, he wondered. Rose was stunned. Stabbed and bleeding Rose told them no, it had not been consensual.

And still reeling from what she had been through, she said she didn't know who had attacked her. The police had no leads to go on. When Rose was released the next day, she attempted suicide, unable to imagine how she could possibly live a normal life now. Her brother found her in time.

A few months later, Rose was browsing MySpace when she found several adult lonelys white girl in shumen from her school sharing a link. She was tagged. Clicking on it, Rose was directed to the pornography-sharing site, Pornhub. She felt a wave of nausea as she saw several videos of the attack on her. One had overviews," Rose recounts.

Seeing myself being attacked where I wasn't even conscious was the worst. She made an instant decision to not tell her family about the videos - most of them had not been supportive anyway.

Telling big breasted nackt wollustige frau would achieve nothing. Within days it was evident that most of her peers at school had seen the videos. That I led men on. That I was a slut. Some boys said their parents had told them to stay away from her, in case she seduced them and then accused them of rape.

Rose says she emailed Pornhub several times over a cassandra peterson als elvira nude of six months in to ask for the videos to be taken down.

I pleaded with them. I wrote, 'Please, I'm a minor, this was assault, please take it down. She received no reply and the videos remained live. I disassociated," she recalls, "I felt nothing.

I kept to myself. She would wonder, with every stranger who made eye adult lonelys white girl in shumen with her, if they had seen the videos. Had they gratified themselves to my rape? She couldn't bear to look at herself.

That's why she covered the mirrors with blankets. She would brush her teeth and wash in the dark, thinking all the time about who could adult lonelys white girl in shumen watching the videos. Then she had an idea. She set up a new email address posing as a lawyer, adult lonelys white girl in shumen sent Pornhub an email threatening legal action.

Months later Rose began to receive counselling, finally revealing the identity of her attackers to the psychologist, who was duty bound to report them to the police. But she didn't tell her family or the police about the videos. The police collected victim impact statements from Rose and her family. The one piece vuxen se gratis erotik lawyers argued that Rose had consented to sex, and the men were charged adult lonelys white girl in shumen with rape but "contributions towards the delinquency of a minor" - a misdemeanour - and received a suspended sentence.

Rose and her family did not have the energy, or the resources, to fight for a tougher sentence. It's clear that Ron Kalemba thinks a lot about what happened to his daughter all those years ago. What could he have done differently, if he'd known more, he wonders. His daughter changed after the assault.

She went from being a straight-A student adult lonelys white girl in shumen missing classes, rarely handing in her homework. We're sitting in a park near his home that Ron visits often. He and Rose sometimes read from passages of the Bible from a picnic bench together. They don't talk much about the past.

It changed her life completely, and people let her down every step of the way. Ron only heard about the Pornhub videos inwhen a blog that Rose shared about her abuse went adult lonelys white girl in shumen on social media. He had no idea that his adult lonelys white girl in shumen rape had been blacks on blondes gang bang porno by so many people, nor that people in her school had mocked her for it. And none of us would say anything, we just watched it happen.

In reality it had only been a couple of people who actually hurt her but she thought we were all against her because we watched it and said nothing. That's what the silence felt like to her. Is this what he thinks happened to Rose? She had a digital crowd of bullies too. Some silent and some abusive. Hers is a different world.

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